God Is Awesome

Have you ever felt so nostalgic about a certain time in your life?
wish you could re-live a certain moment?
Or just spend one last time with someone that you once felt a great deal about?

It's strange how you can wish or pray that something comes true even when that something God doesn't want for you or deep down you don't really want... cause you're content with what you got and wouldn't trade it for anything. but at the time you miss them or really would love to be at that point in time when they meant something to you.

well i felt this way yesterday... i don't really know why. I am happy with who i am with and content with how things are. Although i couldn't escape this feeling of nostalgia. then later as i drifted off to sleep next to Han while watching Groundhog Day... I had a dream that Han didn't want to be with me anymore.. this dream hurt soo bad and the feeling that i will never have another chance to be with him again killed me. i awoke crying and then realised that it was only a dream and he was sleeping safe and sound next to me. i then put my arm around him and layed there thinking to myself that i am exactly where i want to be. Next to the one that i love.
I thought Wow, God is awesome...

sometimes i feel like i am not being heard when i pray, but he hears everything.. there are so many of my prayers that go unanswered.. but for a reason, God doesnt answer every last one of them cause he knows whats best for us and he knows what we need. If we just leave everything up to him he'll pull you in the right direction and bless you acordingly to your works. I am so gald that i had that dream to show me that he cares for me and if he did answer every one of my prayers i may not be as happy as i would like to be. Thats one reason i can Trust God with my Life.