current.

so im trying to stay positive. trying to not let things get to me. im finding it hard to do, but like i said im "trying". sometimes i tend to take my problems out on others that i care about but i dont mean to. i feel bad for it.
as of lately i have decided to not make plans more than a day in advance. cause i find it hard to follow through with them. i hate making plans. cause i feel bad if i break them.. and then i get people upset with me. i hate making plans. something always gets in the way or something comes up or i just dont feel like doing anything. im pretty busy with work as it is and i hardly see han so i want to spend most of my days off with him. i dont know how others will feel about this, but i hope they understand.
i have always hated making plans more than a day in advance and im sure my friends have noticed this throughout he years.