depressed.

you would think with this new job and all that i'd be happy. but i dont feel it. it like i woke up yesterday unhappy. i feel all these negative emotions building up. i try to pray for peace of mind but this feeling just wont break. i dont want to give everyone the wrong idea... i should be happy right? tho i guess working midnights is bringing me down. all i see is this empty apartment and work. i hardly see han and friends. i only see han a couple hours a day if i get the chance. i only see friends on my days off or if they come and see me at work which is very rare. steve is good at coming in and saying hello. that makes me feel good.
i hate feeling depressed but i guess it was only a matter of time for me to fall back into it. also it hurts to feel like i cant talk about it. i feel like no one wants to hear about it or that they just wont understand. but i guess im gonna go to sleep cause i have work today. friday wont come sooner. by time friday comes it will be nine days of work without a day off. tho i should be happy a lot of people are without jobs right now and have it worse than i.