"Happy Holidays!" ...It is my favorite time of year.
this time always brings that warm fuzzy feeling. but still i feel like i am stuck in the fog. that bums me out. i hate feeling like this. i hate depression. i hate wanting to be alone all the time. i hate feeling like i cant talk to anyone about this, cause i feel like they wont understand me. i don't want anyone to think i am over exaggerating how i feel or something.
but i have so much to say but no one to talk to. yeah i have Han to talk to, but i feel like he will think i am being dramatic and something or another. i know he probably knows i am depressed and he knows i go threw it off and on, but i don't want to talk about it to him. i don't want to bring him down. i don't want him to think i am always unhappy or think that it is somehow his fault. idk. I'm happy with him. tho i do wish we would go out more just us two, like a date or whateve... spend time. we always go out with friends or he goes out with just his friends. that makes me sad and feel boring and i am not a boring person. but i know i shouldn't make a big deal of it but it hurts. i love him so i don't really want to bring it up more then i should.
but yeah I'm just gonna go fold some clothes and listen to music and try not to think so much.
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