its been awhile...

yup...
So much has happened this year... things that i am proud of and things that i am not.
The things that im not proud of were kind of not my fault, unpreventable in a manner.. depending on what it was of course.

The most unfortunate things keep happening to me. it has been a spiraling downfall. i want to sulk but i just keep telling myself that everything will be okay. things will get better a little at a time. "you cant have the sweet, without the bitter" as someone once said to me. so i'm taking each day as it comes, hoping.

I really want to go back to Church. I also miss everyone from Church. Its been awhile. This Sunday I work at 4pm, so i actually can attend and this makes me Very happy. I need to work on my relationship with God. Very much. Please pray for me that my Faith will strengthen.



I know God has a plan, and i cant wait to see whats in store... even if I fall down again and again.